Monday, May 21, 2012

We've Moved

Thats right, we've moved, but only in the blogger world. I am not sure what happened, but I can post any pictures to this blog anymore and so I guess its time to get a new one and start over. So, we have moved to a new blog. Come follow us at http://samandkaceeweldin.blogspot.com/

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Sunday Download

This week has been really crazy, but so so fun too. I spent a big chunk of the week getting ready for Ms. Brooke's bridal shower that we had on Saturday. It was  ALOT of work, but it turned out really cute and I loved being able to do that for her. She is just such a sweetheart and I don't think I could love her anymore than I do. I hope that she liked it, and that it was everything she wanted. Don't worry... I have LOTS of pictures. To be completely honest this past week is kind of a blur, the excitement on Saturday kind of over shadowed everything else that happened. I did have something happen at school this week that I should probably write down and deal with again... its a little embarrassing and gave me a lot of insight into myself... which is scary and nice all at the same time. So, in my abnormal pysch class we have been studying different disorders and each class someone presents on a group of disorders (like when I did social anxiety). Well, on Friday they presented on eating disorders. I feel like I have been fairly open about the fact that I did have an eating disorder at one point. I didn't realize it at the time, but I suffered from a form of anorexia called hypergymnasia. I started out training for a marathon, and as I lost weight and started to get positive feed back from others and from within myself I let things get out of control and I got to the point where I would exercise for 3-4 hours a day. I can remeber more than few occasions of going for a 6-8 mile jog in the moring, going to school and work, and then heading to the gym for another 2 or 3 hours. I remember being very focused on what went in and what I worked off. I would ALWAYS try to burn way more than I ate ... I'm not talking about what I ate extra I mean what I ate period so trying to burn off 2000 calories while I was on the treadmill or elliptical was not uncommon. I grew to where I liked people commenting on how long I had been at the gym or what I weighed. The strange thing as I think back though was that I knew I was skinny, but I knew I still wanted to loose. I remember being so self conscious about my tummy and my legs, thinking I had a pooch and cellulite. I was literally consumed by what I looked like and how much I worked out. I can see now what a huge problem I had. Well, in my class they were presenting on Friday and I started feeling very defensive and irritated. I felt like they were presenting it like they were reading from a text book and like it was something that only models and dancers suffered with. I was a little mad. I felt like the people in my class should have a better picture of what it really was. I got more and more irritated as the class went on. Finally at the end when they asked if there were questions or comments I just had to share. I was literally shaking and sweating and stuttering.. you would have thought I was up there presenting. I briefly shared a small part of my problem and just felt so exposed after. I hated it. I literally walked out of the class. After I walked out and got a hold of myself I started to realize how not normal my response was. I had that problem close to 7 years ago. I truely felt like I should have dealt with it by now and be able to share it easily, and without such extreme emotional responses. I guess I hadn't dealt with it completely yet. Of course I called my sister Kati to walk me through what was going on. She told me I should really sit and think about it and identify why I was responding this way. By this time at least 15 minutes had past and my heart was still racing and I was still feeling shakey... weird. I really thought about things and came to the realization that I still am fearful that I will get back to that place because a part of me still wants to. I want to get back to that weight and how it felt to be that skinny again. I want to be able to run the way I ran then and to exercise the way I did then.. I know I was physically very strong then. Sam and I have started working out again and I can feel myself have that internal struggle to maintain a health balance. I want those things again, but not in that way. I know I am hypersensitive because I am still battling my problem. I still struggle with hypergymnsia. Thats why I feel so vunerable, because its still real to me. I am sitting at my computer right now, crying because thats the first time I really realized, and have said outloud that I still currently suffer from hypergymnasia. Its crazy to me to say that and to feel that. I never thought I was one of those girls. I was getting healthy the right way, I was counting calories and exercising. I crossed a line, and I worry that I will cross it again because I want to loose weight and get back to that weight and size. I worry about it all the time, to the point that I don't even know I am worried about it and freaking out in a classing and having to have an emergency therapy session with my sister in a hallway at the college. I still worry, and I needed that to have this realization. I suffer and will continue to suffer from an eating disorder. On to happier things, I lost 7 pounds since we started working out, and I happy to report I have not been at the gym for longer than 2 hours the whole time, and I still eat fairly normal (I mean I have cut back a little but I needed to cut some sugar out :) ) I have started to build my running back and I am really loving it. I really missed running when I didn't have it. Everyone seems to be doing good. I worry about one of my sisters, but I know she is strong and capable. I know that she asks Heavenly Father for help everyday, and that helps my worry. She will be fine, and she will survive her trials right now. I just know it. Things I am grateful for: A nice warm home that I feel safe in An adorable husband who tries really hard and says really sweet things to me Nice sisters that come help me whenever I need them- even when its not fun for them The sunshine and beautiful spring days Good jogs that make me feel healthy Gaining insight into myself so I can continue working on getting better My Weldin/Gibson family and how loved and accepted I feel there Amazing mother-in-law and sisters-in-law that I just love so much Love- because it really is just so sweet Flowers- I have freash flowers in my house now that the shower is over and they just brighten the whole house Learning new things in primary. I know I teach so I can learn, because I learn something new all the time Good jobs that help pay the bills A good car that takes me where I need to go My mom- She is so sweet and supportive of me all the time... I just love her!

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Sunday Download

This past week has really been a fun one. It was spring break so I didn't have school the whole week... what a nice little break! I still had to work, but I actually didn't mind going too much. The best part about being out of school and having some time was that I got to hang out with the kids more, which was a blast! I just cannot get over how fun and smart they all are. My sister really has done a great job... she has some really great kids.

This week Little Miss Jentrie Lou graduate from DARE. She has gone through a program at her school and did a lot of work and wrote an essay about being drug free, and she was THRILLED to graduate this week. I was so glad that I was able to go up and watch her. She was adorable. Congratulations Jentrie Lou!!



This week was also third Sunday, which means, dinner at Grandma's. We LOVE going to see Grandma C and to spend time with her. She is an absolute sweetheart. I just can't get enough of her. While we were there we noticed that Jentrie and Grandma were wearing close to the same colors, and we couldn't miss that photo opportunity! What cuties they are!!!
This week Sam got hurt at work too. He cut his leg on some metal, his ouchie looks pretty narly, but he has been doing a good job of taking care of it. I am just glad it wasn't deeper and worse. What a trooper he is.

This week I also made the best treats ever. I am so addicted to these little pieces of heaven. Its pretzels, hugs, and m&m's. Two minutes in the oven and ten in the fridge to cool and you will die. They are so amazing... and pretty dang cute too. So fun!


I have been planning Brooke's bridal shower and things are starting to get down to the wire. Its next Saturday and feel so unprepared. I know that things will work out but I just want it to be perfect. I am worried that I won't have enough decorations or places to sit or that things won't really look put together. I guess I will let you know how things go after next Saturday, because its coming... ready or not.


I have also been trying really hard to get back into shape. I have really been focusing on my running and trying to build by stamina, and my physical strength back up. I lost quite a bit when I got in my crash and then when I got sick and it has really been taking me a long time to build that back up. I get really frustrated with myself when I can't run what I use to run or when I am really tired after a run that I shouldn't be tired after. I know it will come, and I can see I am getting better but I just wish it would go faster. On Saturday my mom and I ran the Spectrum 10k. I am really glad I did it. I ended up running most of the race with Jolene, a friend of ours, and it was such a good experience. We never stopped once, no walking, no water, nothing... just straight running. It felt so good. I felt strong and able to finish strong and that was really nice. It wasn't my best time, but it wasn't my worst either... it was a good motivational run to get me going. We finished in 1 hour 3 minutes. I am really looking forward to running the marathon this year and I can hardly wait to get back into some serious training. Its going to be amazing!

I have decided I need to start writing out what I am grateful for. I do this on and off and I know that the times I have done it, I really like it and start noticing more things that I am grateful for. I think especially since I really only try to blog once a week, I should be able to do a grateful list once a week... so here goes...
I am grateful for:
    -A nice warm home that feels safe and comfortable
    -Two good jobs (technically three) that I enjoy and can make a living from
    -School-- and a nice break from it to give me the strength to make it through the rest of the semester
    -Running-- and how AMAZING it makes me feel, and the irreplaceable coping tool it is for me
    -Family, and knowing that we will stick together forever, no matter what
    -Sam- because he gives in when I need him to give in and he stands up when I need him to stand up
    -My Grandma- because every time I see her she just makes me feel so special and loved
    -My primary class- because they are so sweet and make us feel like the best teachers in the world (even though were not)
    -Fresh starts- because Heaven knows I need them- and everyone deserves them
    -The sunshine and how happy it makes me!
-   -My little dog Gator- because he just so fun and lays by my feet while I write this post and it just melts my heart.
    -My parents because I think I have the two best parents in the whole world and I can't even imagine where I would be without them.

I get a little choked up to sit down and write these things out because it makes me realize just how lucky I am, and I know that I don't always deserve it. I am looking forward to the insight that I can gain by writing down some things that I am grateful for. What a great way to end the weekend, and to start a new week.



Family Bowling


On Saturday we decided that we should all go bowling. We had so much fun! I forgot how much I liked to bowl, even though I am not very good (Stockden beat me) we all still really had fun hanging out together. We also realized what a champion bowler Aly is... geez... she was awesome!! Good Job Al!







Sunday, February 26, 2012

Sunday Download


Feb 26, 2012

This past week has been a little hectic. We got back from Florida on Monday, well technically Tuesday morning early and I have been playing catch up ever since. School is pretty busy right now, it seems like all of my teachers plan tests and projects at the same time, so I go from fairly easy to a lot of work in just a week or two. I still like it though, and I am really glad that I get to go to school right now. I feel very blessed to have that opportunity.

This week I had a chance to get together with my friends, a few times, which is pretty rare. It seems like I don’t really get to see them that much because we all have such crazy busy lives, but I really am so glad when we get together. I have some of the best friends. I think its really incredible that even though we are all in such different places and doing such different things, we really have stayed good friends. I know not a lot of people still talk to their high school friends, much less hang out with them so I feel so lucky to be so close to my friends still and to be able to get together, even if its just once a month. Friends really are so much fun. Sometimes I have a hard time thinking that I want to be social and to hang out, but I am always glad when I am.

I am so lucky that my birthday celebrations have just continued, it really turned into birthday week for me (which I LOVE). The law office friends surprised me on Friday with a birthday party. It was so sweet of them. They are so thoughtful and kind to remember me and to help make me feel special. It really was such a pleasant surprise. Then on Saturday we did a little celebration with my family and my mom and my sisters and my nieces gave me some really thoughtful sweet cards. Then today (Sunday) we celebrated with Sam’s family. It was really so sweet of everyone to help make me feel so loved and important for my birthday. I am really such a lucky girl to be surrounded by so many kind and thoughtful people.

This past Saturday(the 25th) was my Grandpa Dee’s passing anniversary… I think he has been gone something 13 years. That seems crazy to me. In a bizarre twist of events, Friday, my mom’s aunt Annie passed away. On my mom’s side of the family there is a really weird connection to February 25th ( and surrounding days) so many people have passed away on that day. But when I think back to my Grandpa Mack I have very fond memories. He was so kind and sweet, and worked so hard. I remember always looking forward to seeing him and loving to go to the horse races. I always wanted to be the one to wear his cowboy hat when he switched to a baseball hat. He was such a great man. I really wish that I would have got to know him as a adult. I feel like as I get older I learn to appreciate thing about my parents and my grandma that I never noticed as a child. It’s interesting what kind of perspective you get the older you get. I guess that something to look forward to.

Sam and I have been so lucky to be able to teach primary. We just love our class and have loved all of the classes we have taught. This Sunday my mom, McKall, Jentrie, Staelie, and Stockden all came to our ward because my mom needed to leave town as early as she could to go to Annie’s funeral. I was thrilled to have them. Because my class is so small normally it was fun to have all of them in there with us. They are so sweet and so smart. They know so much about the gospel. We really had so much fun. The lesson was about Heavenly Father watching over us, so I had found a cute idea to make glasses out of pipe cleaners to help the kids remember Heavenly Father is “watching” them. There turned out so cute. I just had to take some pictures.


After church we Sam and I love to take Gator on the trails or to the park. The weather has been so beautiful here that we just can’t but be outside as much as possible. Here are a few pictures from today



Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Day 2 in Florida!

The second day we were in Florida we went to Universal Studio. We were so excited to see the Dr. Suess area and the Harry Potter place. It was awesome!! My favorite part was the Harry Potter area. It really made me feel like were were at Hogwarts. We loved it there, but by the end we were pretty theme parked out.






















Florida for my Birthday!

This year I turned the big 25 and I really felt like I had to do something so fun to celebrate this horribly old age, so DISNEYWORLD it was. I found us a really good deal and off Ash, Kate, and I went to Orlando. Check Florida off my state list. I was really pretty excited to go. I really think I just wanted to feel like a little kids for just a little bit longer, and where is it better to be a kid than at Disney. I told everyone before we went that I had a few requests while we were there, I wanted a birthday button:


A Churro



 Mickey Mouse ears :


A balloon


We had the best time and rode rides, ate such good food, and got some awesome treats! We absolutely loved DisneyWorld! Best Birthday EVER!!