Thursday, June 30, 2011

These are few of my favorite things...

I was talking to Sam last night and just doing my usual "vent session" I always feel like I have to have some time after work to just let out all my frustrations. I feel like during the day they just get so bottled up so after work I literally have to have release or I will explode. While I was in the middle of one of my creative/bratty/annoying comments he turns to me and says... "Kac... you really just gotta be happy where you are.. or change it. But you still just have to be happy." It was so simple but hit me so hard. I really do spend so much time and energy being upset about something or miserable with something else that I literally have no time to be happy where I am.

Once I really started to look at were I am and really all the good things I have... its endless. I am tired of spending all my time and energy complaining because it does nothing but brings me down. So, here is my new effort to notice and focus more on the good things in my life and to minimize the bad things, otherwise, no matter what happens I will always be miserable. I need to re-train myself to maximize the good and minimize the bad.

With that spirit in mind here are some of the great things in my life:

My house
My Mom
My Dad
My Sisters
Sitting on my front porch
Sam sent my flowers for our anniversary
This morning Sam was so sweet and came and gave me a kiss goodbye before he left for work. He thought I was asleep but I wasn't and it was so sweet.
Diet Pepsi- and the fact that Swig is not only like three blocks from my office
That I have a job and can pay all my bills
That I get to go to New York with my sisters
Working at Steamroller-- weird and I never thought I would say that but, right now Steamroller is a nice break from my normal work and makes me feel like I am opening the door to being able to make the transition into something that will be better for me.
My health-- I haven't always been so healthy and I have had my fair share of medical issues but right now I feel good and I am finally back into a solid exercise program and I am starting to feel better.
My car. I have a nice car that is dependable and cute - that hasn't always been the case and I really appreciate the freedom that gives me.
At the end of the day I have very sweet kind co-workers that really do care about each other.

Every experience I am having right now in my life I can feel will really be beneficial for me later on in life- even if it is just an example of exactly what I don't want in life or how I can do things differently. I am grateful for the experience.

While I was listening to the radio today I was thinking about looking at things in a better way and this song came on. I am such a sucker for sappy songs and this is just perfect for what I feel:

Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down
It can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful
You think, you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road
At the end of the day

But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way
Of takin' its sweet time

No, life ain't always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life ain't always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin'
All these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess, I can dream
But life don't work that way

But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way
Of takin' its sweet time

No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know, I'll be fine
Hey, life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Can You Believe It??

Today is our 3 year anniversary! Isn't that just crazy! I can't believe that 3 years ago we were here:

The past three years have not been easy and Sam and I joke that it can only get better from here. We really have been so lucky that where one of us is weak the other is strong. I feel like we really can compliment each others weaknesses. Its a very interesting place to be, to have someone be able to help you were you struggle and to be able to use your strengths to help someone else. Its interesting in such a good way.

Sam and I dated for about three years before we got married, so all in all we have been together almost 6 years! That's a long time. Its fun to look back over our old pictures as see how little we looked and how much has changed. I would have never imagined this is where I would be right now, but I am sure glad I'm here. I feel very blessed to have Sam in my life and for all the ways he completes me. Love you Salmon!

Monday, June 20, 2011


Oh my how lucky are we to have great dad's in our life! I have been so lucky/blessed to have such an amazing, giving, hard-working, loving, considerate, kind, intelligent, forgiving Dad. I love spending time with my Dad and enjoying his company. He is always making me laugh and he knows just what to say when I'm upset. He is one of the first people I call when I have a problem or when something really good happens. I am so grateful for all the sacrifices he had made, makes, and will continue to make for me. I am so glad he's my Dad!!

Although I have never met the late-great Ricky Weldin I have heard that he was such an amazing person. Actually while I went visiting teaching to a girl in a my ward I found out she was one of his nurses and she told me that Ricky was one of those people that comes into your life and never leaves- truly unforgettable. What a testament to the kind of person he was. I know that he played and continues to play such a role in shaping Sam's life. He constantly looks to his Dad's memory for guidance one what to do with his life. I am so grateful that Ricky was such a great person and helped raise such a great son.

We are also so blessed to have Rob in our lives. He is such a generous kind person. I am sure that his role is such a tight rope to walk but he does it amazingly well. He is such a great "step father" and "step-father-in-law" we feel so blessed to have in our lives. He really fills a void we didn't realized existed!

Dad's make such a huge difference in our lives and we have been so blessed to have three of the greatest in our lives! We love our dads!!!

Monday, June 13, 2011

Stockden's Birthday Party

On Saturday we went to Cedar for Stockden's birthday party. Stockden is OBSESSED with cars-- he loves all cars and he LOVES  Cars the movie. We had a lot of fun up there. All Stockden wanted for his birthday was candles and for everyone to sing happy birthday to Staelie-- so funny. I just love that boy!

Stockden is 3!!!

I can't hardly believe it!! Stock is 3!! Its so crazy how fast time flies. It seems like it wasn't that long ago I left work in the middle of the morning to go see him born!! I was so lucky to be the first family member there after-- I was the first to get to hold him- after his mama and dad of course. He is such a funny boy. He is spunky and adorable. He always says the funniest things. On his birthday I called Alyson to tell him Happy Birthday- in the back ground all I can hear is Stockden yelling "Mom, you be nice to me."-- hahaha she wouldn't let him ride his bike in the house. He really brings so much to our family and I am so happy he's my nephew!! Love you Stock!!

I am so happy you're three Stockty!!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

All About Ashlee Ann

Today is my sister Ashlee's birthday. Unfortunately, or fortunately -- however you look at it- she is in NYC and so we can't celebrate with her. We threw her a little going away/ birthday party before she left though. Today Kate and I decided to go get a treat after work to celebrate-- even though Ash won't be there.

Lets see, there are so many things I love about Ash. Me and Ash have kind of always been "stuck" together because we are the youngest. So we always shared a room- we always had to watch out for each other and we almost always got in trouble together. She is such a sweet heart. She holds her emotions on her sleeve- in a good way. She is very expressive and really makes deep connections with people. She is really good at maintaining really long lasting friends ships. Something I am not so good at. She is always a do-er. If we decide we want to go somewhere, or do something its instinct to turn to Ash to figure out how to get it done. She is very organized. She keeps all of us on track, especially when we travel. Ashlee can navigate anywhere. She is very good at getting herself where she needs to go and thinking things through.

Ashlee is probably the most spiritual member of our family. She knows whats right and never waivers. She just does whats right-- there is no question. I love having her as my big sister. She has always been such a good friend to me. She always gives me such good advise and listens whenever I am freaking out. She really is one of my best friends. I just love that girl so much! I hope she has the best 27th birthday!!!

Love you Ashers!!